kebebasan... dan kepusingan

setelah seminggu belajar terus.... akhirnya bisa tidur nyenyak hari ini.  beruntungnya, gue dapet nilai yang memuaskan di pelajaran eksak kayak matematika,fisika, n kimia.... perjuangan yang gak sia-sia nih... lagi pusing kepala dipaksain wat belajar dah.. biar dapet nilai yang bagus... hehe...

hari sabtu, hari ini tentunya.. gue melepas semua beban yang ada dalam otak gue... biar gak pusing terus nih kepala... gue memutuskan untuk membeli buku BOTCHAN !!!!! senangnya hatiku... o, iya.. saya tadi pergi dianterin ma mas2... 

gue mau nonton film Rotatouile and semua film animasi yang gue suka untuk ngrefresh otak gue yang selama 6 hari ini terus dibekali oleh ilmu-ilmu yang bermanfaat.... 

wahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!! senang banget deh... 

akan tetapi, kepala saya pusing lagi !! soalnya tadi saya lupa minum obat and bawa payung... jadinya tadi keujanan..... huft...

tak dapat dipungkiri, hidup bagaikan  belati

penuh caci maki

penuh tragedi

penuh emosi

hanya orang-orang yang behati yang dapat memahami

kesulitan hidup ini

ketakutan ini, terus menghantui

di dalam diri yang sepi

tak tertemani

hanya sepi

hanya bisa menghayali

semua kekesalan dan kebohongan ini

tak dapat dipungkiri

seperti sayatan belati

This Is About Life Experiences And Lessons

begini, gue punya temen, yang tadinya gue cuma pernah ngeliat dia di sekolah doang n pertama kali liat tuh orang pas pak mulya ngisi materi di aula pas gue baru di MOS dulu.. kalo gak salah si, dia disuruh ngegotong meja ma pak mulya..nah, dari situlah gue mulai kenal muka tuh orang cuma kagak tau namanya... pertama liat si, kayaknya ni orang cool n pendiem cuek bebek gila.. eh ternyata, tukang ngebanyol abis... gila dah... orangnya tinggi tapi tinggian gue satu senti daripada tuh orang... item tapi putih ( gara-gara paskib kali ye ), cukup kurus(tapi kata dia badannya tuh seksi .. uekkk!!!haha), cuek ma penampilan ( tapi kadang-kadang dandan tuh.. ), suka banget ma greenday terutama billie joenya..

hm..
n pas bulan puasa tahun ini.. secara tidak sengaja mulai kenalan di facebook.. "wah, ni orang kayak gue pernah liat dah .." itulah yang gue pikirin pas liat foto dia di profile facebooknya. "oh.... yang pernah seangkot ma gue ni mah" itulah pemecahan perkiraan gue.... "hah? siliandra ? namanya kebagusan amat" pikiran gue setelah liat profile namenya.lalu ni orang mulai wall-wallan ma gue bahkan ampe tengah malem gila... n mulailah pertemanan gue ma ni orang berlanjut ke dunia nyata... tapi anehnya, gue ma ni orang gak pernah nyapa satu sama lain kalo lagi di sekolah.. haha

oh iya... dia tuh orang yang kocak,menurut orang si terutama kaum hawa menganggap gayanya keren (uhukuhuk !), agak kepedean banget,narsis,seru,imut (hahahaha!!!!), kalo nyanyi suaranya kayak park yun hwa abis seperti suara wanita tapi seksi (hahahahaha!!!!), lumayan jago maen drum (hah? soalnya belum liat langsung men) , aliran musiknya rock-rock gitu,suka naek VIVI (vespa tercintanya)..,.....
apalagi yah ??????

oh,iya ni orang bikin gue menyadari bahwa di dalam hidup ini terdapat banyak banget masalah ... gue mendapatkan pelajaran ini pas dia suka ngeluh soal keluarga,temen-temen, n semua permasalahan yang bikin dia bete.. gue menjadi orang yang lumayan bijak, soalnya gue ngasih pemikiran positif terus ke dia.. jadinya sekarang gue dijadikan tempat curhat wat temen-temen gue di kelas juga... alhamdullilah....

hehehehe...
inilah satu pelajaran lagi yang gue dapetin dari pengalaman hidup gue...
oh... ampe lupa nama "Ni orang" tuh byasa gue panggil "Men" to gak "Qie" hahaha!!!!

pelajaran :

• " there are too many problems in this life which must to do what you can do to finish it...."
• " all people always feel broken heart because of love.. don't think deep about it, just let it flow..."
• " if you feel bored, just make it fun !"
• "scream and sing a song louder as you can, to get out your angrier..."
• "in this life, there are white soul and black soul stay on our heart, and we must control it."

hahahahaha!!! ni orang kebanyakan ngasih pelajaran hidup...

all of my feeling

Uh huh, life's like this
Uh huh, uh huh, that's the way it is
Cause life's like this
Uh huh, uh huh that's the way it is
Chill out whatcha yelling' for?
Lay back it's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
you will see
I like you the way you are
When we're drivin' in your car
and you're talking to me one on one but you've become

Somebody else round everyone else
You're watching your back like you can't relax
You're tryin' to be cool you look like a fool to me
Tell me

Why you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
And you fall and you crawl and you break
and you take what you get and you turn it into honesty
and promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it
no no no

You come over unannounced
dressed up like you're somethin' else
where you are and where it's at you see
you're making me
laugh out when you strike your pose
take off all your preppy clothes
you know you're not fooling anyone
when you've become
Somebody else round everyone else
Watching your back, like you can't relax
Trying to be cool you look like a fool to me
Tell me

Why you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
and You fall and you crawl and you break
and you take what you get and you turn it into
honesty
promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it
no no no

Chill out whatcha yelling for?
Lay back, it's all been done before
And if you could only let it be
You will see

Somebody else round everyone else
You're watching your back, like you can't relax
You're trying to be cool, you look like a fool to me
Tell me

Why you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like you're somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
and You fall and you crawl and you break
and you take what you get and you turn it into
honesty
promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it
no no

Why you have to go and make things so complicated?
I see the way you're acting like your somebody else gets me frustrated
Life's like this you
You fall and you crawl and you break
and you take what you get and you turn it into honesty
promise me I'm never gonna find you fake it
no no no


Slipping down a slide
I did enjoy the ride
Don't know what to decide
You lied to me
You looked me in the eye
It took me by surprise
Now are you gratified
You cried to me

La, la, la, la, la
Don't turn around
I'm sick and I'm tired of your face
Don't make this worse
You've already gone and got me mad
It's too bad I'm not sad
It's casting over
It's just one of those things
You'll have to get over it

When I was feeling down
You'd start to hang around
And then I found your hands all over me
And that was out of bounds
You filthy rotten hound
It's better than it sounds, believe me

La, la, la, la, la

Don't turn around
I'm sick and I'm tired of your face
Don't make this worse
You've already gone and got me mad
It's too bad I'm not sad
It's casting over
It's just one of those things
You'll have to get over it

Hey, you gotta get over it
Hey, you gotta get over it

It's too bad I'm not sad
It's casting over
It's just one of those things
You'll have to get over it

Don't turn around
I'm sick and I'm tired of your face
Don't make this worse
You've already gone and got me mad

Don't turn around
I'm sick and I'm tired of your face
Don't make this worse
You've already gone and got me mad
It's too bad I'm not sad
It's casting over
It's just one of those things
You'll have to get over it

You'll have to get over it

a hypocrite..

kadang orang-orang tidak menyadari akan perbuatan yang mereka perbuat adalah perbuatan yang membuat orang lain sakit hati dan terluka !
mereka hanya sibuk melihat kesalahan orang lain dan selalu merasa dirinya orang tersempurna di dunia ini karena tanggapan orang baik terhadapnya!
sangat ingin sekali Aku berteriak di hadapan mereka tentang semua hal yang telah mereka lakukan padaku !
ingin sekali Aku membuat mereka bertekuk lutut dan meminta maaf di hadapanku !
dan membuat mulut mereka tersumbat sedalam-dalamnya agar tidak ada lagi orang yang terjerumus seperti KU !
jika diperbolehkan, Aku ingin membeberkan kejahatan yang mereka perbuat dibalik mulut manis dan sikap baik mereka !
yang di dalamnya terdapat banyak KEMUNAFIKAN yang seharusnya tidak dimiliki oleh golongan orang-orang seperti mereka !
apakah dunia ini sudah berpindah haluan tentang baik dan jahat ?
Apakah semua orang di dunia ini sekarang berkedok palsu ?
Berkedok dengan pakaian yang baik, untuk dianggap baik oleh semua orang !
Padahal, orang yang dari luarnya terlihat tidak baik, malah yang lebih banyak memiliki kebaikan dan sopan-santun daripada orang-orang yang hanya memakai topeng kebaikan seperti mereka !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

나의 새로운 친구

오늘은 내게 소중한 자유입니다 ...
아주 잘 사용합니다
그리고 내가 한 달 동안 금식 .... 만난 새 친구에 대해 얘기하고 싶지
그는 정말 좋은 데요,하지만 그는 항상 그가 왕따였던 그녀의 어머니에 의해 학대를 느꼈다 ..
내가 어머니의 사랑 느낌 그녀를 아주 많이
이유는 모르겠지만 .. 나는 그의 삶의 원칙, 특히 변화를 많이 주어 졌 ...
전율 때 적극적으로 그녀가 싫어하는 것들에 대한 생각에 ...
난 좋은 사람으로 설정을 기대하고 있었는데 ...
아멘
..

telusuri

lanjutan rimba idol..........

dah sekitar 3 bulan nih gue gak ngelanjutin terusan cerita rimba idol....

di hari penentuan gue menggunakan kemeja hijau plus dasi hijau, rok selutut berwarna hitam, pake jas abu-abu yang panjang, and sepatu putih plus kaos kaki item.. gue berdandan ala harajuku gitu...
dandanan si dah oke n cantik...
akan tetapi, yah.. gue kan keseringan nyanyiin lagu jepang ma korea... jadinya gue susah banget wat ngapalin lagu indonesia..

saat tampil, lupalah semua lirik yang dah gue apalin.. hua..!!!! alhasil, gue gak lolos seleksi karena pengambilan nada dasar yang salah n kagak apal lirik lagunya.. bayangkan men... cuma dikasih waktu sehari wat nentuin nada dasarnya... mantep....
tapi semua itu adalah pengalaman berharga wat gue... gue harus jadi orang yang selalu siap ma keterdadakan..

yoyo... what's up bro... !!!!!!!

life experiences...........

jo yeong hee, hwaigthing !!!!!!!!!!!

waduh !!!!!!!!!!!!! penyakit aneh !!!!!!!!

bener-bener dah... kok gue jadi gini ya ??? suka pusing banget pala gue.... mata gue buyar... sering uring-uringan, bengong terus, huh ... pokoknya mengalami penyakit aneh dah..
bahkan lebih parahnya lagi, gue tadi gak denger temen gue manggil-manggil gue ampe 3 kali !!!!!!! bahkan ampe teriak-teriak kali .. dodol amat si gue !!!!!!!! kok jadi makhluk teraneh sedunia gue ?
duh....
bagaimana caranya nih ???? dah lama gak ke sekolah jadi orang gilalah gue...
baka janai !!!!!!! bapoya !!!!!!!!!! freak girl... men....